Yes, I haven't forgotten. Nor have I stopped thinking of how much we had in common. Perhaps you would disagree with this. I reckon I'll never know for sure, but if I could see and hear what your thoughts were in those final days and hours, I feel confident that I would understand. There's just that 'nagging feeling' that I'm missing some critical piece of the puzzle. More will be revealed. - Jim -
Hey Buddy!
Here it is, 2 months and 9 days later. Still come to visit on a pretty regular basis...at least a couple times a month. More often than I saw you when you were still with us? Yeah, I suppose so, but all I have to do is dial up the website, now. I know, you never were hard to get hold of before...just that money didn't permit trips into town as often as I'd have liked...but then I've never been really happy with the financial realities of life. Hope you're in a good place. I'm Still doing pretty much the same things expecting different results..nothing changes and nothing changes. -Jim-
Hey! Just balanced the books from the loan you gave me. I kinda think you'd be pleased. Miss ya.
It's been over a year, but I still have the recording of your last call on my voice-mail. They say that time will heal all wounds. I guess some wounds just take longer than others..."Sometimes slow, sometimes fast". :)
Comments: what can i say but thank you for the times you were there for me. my sorrow is that in your time i was not there for you. a selfish program it is but what i have learned is in time of pain the life i have belongs to all who would and will help....damn it Shawn Drake
Date: January 14, 2002 Comments: Hey Mark, it had been awhile since I had seen you at a meeting. Not that you hadn't been going, just that I had not been to one that you had been at. This disease is cunning, baffling, and powerful. Your message to those of us who remain going to meetings is to stay connected and remember our first step says "We" Our disease thrives on isolation, darkness, and negativity. Thanks for all the good energy you gave while you were here with us on this dark little planet. Will see you again at a Meeting in the Morontia worlds where time, problems, and spacial things are not so much our reality. Only learning love. blessings -- Karen W.
Date: January 15, 2002 Comments: Hey Mark, You were such an inspiration to me when I first got sober, and really helped me out. Sorry you decided you could'nt stick around longer to share your experience strength and hope, and you will surely be missed. Love you my friend, Carole W.
Date: 11 January 2002
Time: 07:57:08 PM
Comments:
You were a good friend, Mark. There was too much left undone, and now it will never BE done. Death
is such a permanent solution to a temporary problem!
Miss ya Buddy,
Jim
Date: January 21, 2002
Time: 09:01 AM
Remembrance:
Yes, I know that I've made an entry prior to this, but that was then and this is now. I can still
hear your voice on the voice-mail, but not at the meeting we used to call our home group. I know,
I should "get over it", but each time someone remembers you it may help them to remember what
happens when we forget. I'm trying not to forget. When my Father died he was cremated and his
ashes were spread over the Mt Hood National Forest...there was no monument. To me, this is your
monument...a place where I can go to remember you and try to make sense of this 'life after
drinking'. Yes, change is still painful when I resist it. Life on life's terms though. I will
continue to apply the lessons that I've learned from you, and others, in all my affairs so that
our ‘struggle for our sanity’ may not have been in vain. - Jim